I cleaned out my Grandpas room today and i realized that i miss him a whole lot. And i miss how he used to call me Lacamacahia. and i miss how he would say "stick with me and ill get you diamonds as big as horse balls" or "and remember dont you take any wooden nickels" and when I introduced him to people he'd say "shake the hand that shook the hand of abraham lincoln." And i miss that he smoked that nastiest kind of cigarettes available to man. Vantage menthol medicated cigarettes. eww. they had holes in the filter. and i miss how he when i would come to his house he wouldnt let me in without saying "o ah o suwaka" and i would have to respond "beno shawnee wah" and then i could come in.Oh i miss him a lot. ermph. I loved him. oh well. at least he isnt starving and dying anymore. <333


On a better note. I love stephen. a lot. and Nikki<3 called me today. and that made me smile. and I seen doogie and mike and jared and hippy timmm<333 today. My aunt cheryl is flying in from cali tonight. And my uncle and niece corrie are flying in monday. with brain and leigha and robyn and billy.[the methamphetmine/heroin addicts] It will be nice to see brian. i havent seen him since he was running from the law in cali and ended up staying at my house for two weeks in 1996. He lookd exactly like Anthony Kidas of the red hot chili peppers. he is your typical california stud muffin. and he had long beautiful hair. and he always sang "under the bridge to me" and rock me to sleep. ermph oh memories.


sorry im babbling.<33